“…if she ever wanted to see her mother again… the mother she hadn’t seen in almost 5 years. The mother she barely knew. But yet, she was also the mother that she was just getting to know. She was the mother that gave her the eyes, the golden hair, the sarcastic sense of humor, and the focus and motivation. If she ever wanted to see this mother again, the only choice she had would be to kill herself. She was stuck between Heaven and earth. Mom & dad. Dreams and real life. This is when she had doubts about her God. What God would ever make you choose between the 2 living beings that love you the most. It felt unreal to her. Had she even had a mom? All the memories of her were just hazy images in the very back of her mind. Pictures at the back of an album that are impossible to ever truly remember…”

bye bye papa please pray for me.